Whatever It Is - Gary Horvitz

[Larry Robinson]

Whatever It Is
 
Whatever it is
No matter how fast or how deeply you breathe
The colors on the back of your eyelids
The length of your neck or the tilt of your back
Let it go.
 
Whether it’s wondering what you want
Or how long you’ve been doing this or what you
Think you must learn in this life
Let it go.
 
No matter if you will be going to a movie tonight
Or whether space extends infinitely in all directions
Whether you will ever have a moment with no end
Let it all go.
 
No matter if you do not understand at all
Or think you must dissect it until nothing is left
No matter if you are having the experience you desire
Or merely having the experience you are having.
Let it go.
 
No matter if you ever find pervasive joy
Underneath whatever you mistake for sorrow
Or whether you wish to start this life over again
This is no time to wonder about time.
 
This is no time to wonder how you got here
Or how many lifetimes it has taken before
You can brandish your luminosity as if it were a light.
It is not yours. Or anyone’s at all.
So let it go.
 
No matter if you can speak your truth or even know it
Whether you like it or not that is not yours either
So speak your truth as if it belongs to everyone
Because there is no speaker and nothing spoken
And therefore nothing to let go.
 
You came into my life from a land I had not imagined
Speaking a language I did not know that I could hear
But now that I can hear it spoken in my own heart
I let go of you every day as if it is the last.


	- Gary Horvitz