Only Time Will Tell - Maya Spector

[Lawrence Robinson]

Only Time Will Tell


In midlife,
in the days when
I was too busy trying 
to conquer life on 
all fronts, and when
my elders began
their descents,
did I consider
what my old age
would be like?

No, I never accepted 
the reality of 
my own demise.
If ever I had an image
of an old me, it was
of a spry and graceful 
elder, still working in
a bountiful garden.
A fairy tale.
A dream.

Now that I have 
grown old and watch 
the middle agers
deep in their own
very busy lives, 
now that I have
slowed down and 
known the breaking down 
of an aging body, 
I still see that I want
to conquer life.
But by that, I now mean
that I want to go out 
with gratitude and peace,
not fighting death, but rather
open to every moment
until I enter eternity.
Another fairy tale?
Another dream?
Only time
will tell.

	- Maya Spector